I walked back and forth in a seemingly short space that was allowable on that day during the pandemic. Breathing much of my own breath through the face-covering created an awareness of the boundaries between myself and what was “outside” of me. Honestly, I did not like the environment. I longed to be in a beautiful garden- to see what I remembered from years past, most especially, to be reunited with friends and family. I longed for what I loved but could not see and to be where I could not be. I wanted to embrace life again.
Quickly, I realized that sorrow was filling up my heart and my airspace. The longings had no place to go. Then I remembered that they did. Everything that was on my heart always had a place to go.
As I gazed before me, I no longer saw the long hallway. I acknowledged that everything in this world and in the eternal was made by God – that all that came into my own view was by His will and in His timing.
I began to praise Him for the goodness and for all of the beauty that was everywhere both in my life and for what came to my heart. Many steps later my heart was lifted. In an intimate discourse with the most loving Lord, I brought all of my burdens. I asked for help and was needful in supplications.
As I returned to my doorway I was grateful for the nest of my home. Entering, I took off the face-mask. Breathing is such a gift.
I opened the window wider and let in more fresh air. I looked outside and felt grateful.
Matthew 11:28-30 —Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Psalm 55:22 — Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.
Philippians 4:6-7–Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
© 2020 from Linda Willows