Faith Stays! Bold Humility from L.Willows
My Pastor, during our fellowship meeting this week concerning answered prayers, said, “It is nice to have answered prayer. It is nice to ride the wave as long as you can but also good to see the pain of it and see what it feels like to see Jesus there and see what it feels like to have his love there. That is more. It requires humility to stay in the corner station with Jesus even when he is silent. Faith stays! He may not be speaking but He is always listening.” (Pastor Tom Holliday, Alexandria Presbyterian Church)
Sometimes our lives and the lives of those around us become complicated. Things unforeseen to us happen. Life and the unexpected begins to call again. Perhaps something that you felt was certain has been “taken away” or a prayer that you have been faithfully persisting seems left unanswered. Here, he is saying is ground for fertile faith. Here is where we really find our hearts with Jesus and have a chance to feel and know his love.
When we don’t get what we want, our hearts start to measure the distance between the longing and what it will take to find peace.
The next thing that my Pastor said was that “It requires humility to stay in the corner station with Jesus even when he is silent.”
Now I am stepping back from that a bit and asking myself if I really had any humility, to begin with. Of course, I assumed that I did but what if I didn’t? If part of me felt regret about unanswered prayer, or part even pitied myself for the loss of what I did not receive that was a form of turning away from that “corner station” with Jesus when he is silent.
It can look lots of ways:
+I could be silent myself and just stop praying.
+I could be silent myself by becoming “too busy” for God.
+I could turn away by deciding that I want to explore ‘alternative ways’ of getting what I want.
+I could ‘resist’ by pretending that I just don’t care anymore and close up my heart.
+I could rebel and shut down my “feelings” for The Lord.
+I can leave in many ways.
But we need to go the distance, we need to stay in that corner station with Jesus. We need to have the courage to stay! Be stronger than our fears. Be larger than closing our hearts. Ask the Holy Spirit to give us the strength to have more faith and deepen our strength.
We need to dig in the most when we want to leave or at least when our “hope does”. Our hope sometimes feels like it wants to just let go and walk away. That is when we need to hold fast and remember the love that Jesus has for us, how much he held on for us! We can ask for help. We can say, “Lord, help me” when we feel like we are weakening. It works.
The Humility that staying requires is filled with surrender. It asks us to face our hearts boldly and take risks. It asks us to be strong and dig into faith.
Humility is not something that belongs to a weak character, it is a bold strength. It comes from shedding what is not true about ourselves. We are not what is apart from God. We are not our feelings, our doubts, our fears or our flights and losses. Most especially we are not our desire to control outcomes. That is a fantasy of our minds!
The Humility that staying requires is the welcome mat before the doorway to Faith. It is what we stand upon when we knock at the door and say, “Lord, help me.”
I am so grateful for the lesson that was presented. I needed to take a second look at the status, or what the “corner station” of my own humility was. Do I need to keep refreshing this? Is humility something that we need to “shake out” on a regular basis just like the welcome mats at a doorway that gets dusty? Or even very heavy laden with the weight of what we don’t realize we have put on it?
If it is before the door to Christ, I would wish that this precious entry be the fabric of my greatest treasure, pure love woven and grounded in a faith fibered with his word, his truth and God’s promises of His Goodness and eternal assurance of abiding Presence.
© 2019 Linda Willows
Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
2 Timothy 1:12 “For this reason I also suffer these things, but I am not ashamed; for I know whom I have believed and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him until that day.”
Isaiah 43:19 “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
Job 42:2 “I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted.”
Genesis 28:15 “I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”